Where Is He...

I had a conversation with a young man whom I once had a mutual interest in. We talked about life and what could of should of would of been between the two of us. He told me that if I was honest with him and not pull the "tough girl" approach then I could be his forever by now. Makes me think about a few things my pastor big brother said to me. I have played the big tough girl for too long and now I am ready to be loved and accept it. I am tired of being the strong independent woman and ready to be a loving caring wife. Who knows what the future holds between me and that gentleman...who knows if that has passed and I have a future with a certain Iron Man who has played this game of don't kiss and don't tell with me for the past 3 or 4 years now. All I know is that I want to be a woman, soft and gentle just like God created me to be and I want to be open and vulnerable for that one man whose rib God used to form me. My eyes have been open to a lot of things within the past few months and I do not take anything lightly. Lord show me who I am and who I am in...please give me the strength and patience for him to find me so that we can spend the rest of eternity learning how to love each other like Christ loves the church! There is one man I have no problem submitting too because he deserves all of me without a mask to cover up my sensitive and private areas. What is love that I see so many people endure? Can I have that feeling and that experience? Will I get that chance to ever say 'I Do'? Who knows...