3rd Day

So...last Sunday in church Bishop Jakes talked about the 3 day process. He basically broke it down in the stages in which change happens. This does not mean a 3 (24hour day) period...but seasons in your life. He used the example of Israel in the wilderness...needing food to eat. So the Lord sent them some "manna". Day 1 - What is this? They were never exposed to it before and every day he provided it for them and they were accustomed to waking up and finding the manna. Then all of a sudden God stopped sending it. What do you do when God stops blessing you with the one thing you are use to?

That's where Day 2 comes in? What happened to the blessing. See I am experiencing day 2. My previous relationship ended and there was no warning...no explanation...nothing. So I had to deal with my blessing stopping and God not telling me what was going on. I had to deal with a man that I loved and who once loved me...no longer loving me anymore. I had to deal with the heart ache. Because no matter what I tried it didn't work. Bishop explained this was God's way of weening me from what I was used to in order to give me something better. He was weening me from being with someone who was dependent on me when he really didn't want to be. He was weening me from someone who stopped loving me and caring for me. He was weening me from someone who didn't really act like they wanted to marry me despite all the promises. At first I did not nor could I understand because I was trying to force it to work. By any means necessary was my objective. I felt if I didn't fight for my relationship now...how could I fight for it when we were married? I had to realize that when God blesses you with something you don't have to fight to keep it...it's yours. So when I started fighting...I knew it was no longer mine.

Day 3 is when the new and better blessing comes in. I was weened from the thing I was comfortable with...when all along God wanted me to have something (or someone better.) I was holding on to what use to fill me up and now that thing no longer satisfies my appetite. I had to learn that I could not hold on the the "maybe" aspect of that relationship. "Maybe" he will come back around. "Maybe" we will start doing things again. "Maybe" he will take me places. "Maybe!" I had to learn that I deserved more and I deserved better. I also learned that once you realize that God made you a promise...the actual blessing is not far behind. See the Lord promised me something for next year and I was expecting it to be with my ex. Now I know he was not the EX God was talking about.!

Daddy God is so funny and he really has a sense of humor.

*Be Blessed and Believe!*

About Me...

I am who I was created to be. I'm a mysterious being walking on this earth unraveling the myths about this world and unlocking the keys into a place that reaches far beyond what the eye can see.

I’m a child of the TRUE KING and a servant to a master that paid the ultimate sacrifice for my existence even to this day. I live by what Christ delegated to his followers to do and in his image alone. Although I am far from perfection, my advancement has seen unprecedented progress I realize the journey is far from over.

I speak from my heart regardless of the emotional attachments that are displayed. I always evoke the controversies that we face in this day and age with the realities that surface minus the spotlight and cameras. I speak words profoundly and sincerely as David did, with an open heart and an open agenda, leaving nothing out that God can not see. This is me…wrapped in words to be a blessing to the entire universe…one word at a time.

HE LIVES!

A Creation

She is me in the after life, a beautiful creature created with love and passion
Molded from pain and suffering but polished with hope and prosperity
The external parts of her are structured with strength to secure all valuable assets
The internal parts are like a delicate flower; soft and sweet like honey that nourishes the soul
Nothing can break her spirit and her determination was set before her entrance into the world
Faced with life trials and hardships, people turning their backs and closing their doors
Realizing love is a foolish antic played by those trying to gain higher access to fame
She pushes nonsense aside and seeks the one who whispered to her soul
Now awake, her eyes are those of angels able to see the spiritual phase as realistic
Aspirations take over her mind and cause her heart to find shelter
No longer gambling with finicky things and people who seemed to care
Driven by the force from her dreams that tells her happiness is far and beyond
In order to experience such a thing as success, she takes a voyage across a world no longer hers
She sees the things life has done to the beauty created by the one she loves the most
Tears overwhelm her internal beauty allowing anger to boil at a level that causes pain
Unable to face the ugliness that greed caused from every single man
Taken back to the thought of who she was before she was transformed into her new being
Understanding life is never easy and nothing given is really free, a price is paid somehow
She sees new opportunity in everything she is introduced too and things she stumbled upon
Changing her perception on life as whole and the methods in which she now travels
She is me in the current state of mind, the girl who wanted big but lived small
The one that chased after a vision that was planted in her womb before the stars were created
Heaven is her home now and she sits upon the billions who were called as she was
Destiny complete but the mission is still in full pursuit, to a paradise never seen before
A creation almost as beautiful as the sun saying hello and goodbye at the same time
Difficult for man to appreciate for her value has no monetary value but is rich beyond means
Set aside not for the satisfaction of a man, but for the one that created her for himself
Too see that such a creation as this, is rare, and can never be duplicated…so the mold was broken
She is who I was….who I continue to be…who I will end up like
She is me!