So...last Sunday in church Bishop Jakes talked about the 3 day process. He basically broke it down in the stages in which change happens. This does not mean a 3 (24hour day) period...but seasons in your life. He used the example of Israel in the wilderness...needing food to eat. So the Lord sent them some "manna". Day 1 - What is this? They were never exposed to it before and every day he provided it for them and they were accustomed to waking up and finding the manna. Then all of a sudden God stopped sending it. What do you do when God stops blessing you with the one thing you are use to?
That's where Day 2 comes in? What happened to the blessing. See I am experiencing day 2. My previous relationship ended and there was no warning...no explanation...nothing. So I had to deal with my blessing stopping and God not telling me what was going on. I had to deal with a man that I loved and who once loved me...no longer loving me anymore. I had to deal with the heart ache. Because no matter what I tried it didn't work. Bishop explained this was God's way of weening me from what I was used to in order to give me something better. He was weening me from being with someone who was dependent on me when he really didn't want to be. He was weening me from someone who stopped loving me and caring for me. He was weening me from someone who didn't really act like they wanted to marry me despite all the promises. At first I did not nor could I understand because I was trying to force it to work. By any means necessary was my objective. I felt if I didn't fight for my relationship now...how could I fight for it when we were married? I had to realize that when God blesses you with something you don't have to fight to keep it...it's yours. So when I started fighting...I knew it was no longer mine.
Day 3 is when the new and better blessing comes in. I was weened from the thing I was comfortable with...when all along God wanted me to have something (or someone better.) I was holding on to what use to fill me up and now that thing no longer satisfies my appetite. I had to learn that I could not hold on the the "maybe" aspect of that relationship. "Maybe" he will come back around. "Maybe" we will start doing things again. "Maybe" he will take me places. "Maybe!" I had to learn that I deserved more and I deserved better. I also learned that once you realize that God made you a promise...the actual blessing is not far behind. See the Lord promised me something for next year and I was expecting it to be with my ex. Now I know he was not the EX God was talking about.!
Daddy God is so funny and he really has a sense of humor.
*Be Blessed and Believe!*
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