Crossroads

So...I recently found myself infatuated with a new guy. I was torn about this because I had high hopes that me and my ex would be able to rekindle our old flames. I now realize that we only have "Soul Ties" and that our souls are not knitted together. I now realize that I loved him because of what we used to have. I loved him for what he use to be and how he use to treat me. I could not think of any current situation on why I needed to be with him. It was all a want. So now I have the opportunity of starting fresh with someone new. Someone who can see me in his future...someone who is willing to make time for me...someone who does not have any expectations and is wanting to take things one day at a time. I had expectations and every time I let myself down because of them. I am intrigued by this new guy because he no longer has expectations. He never wants to jinx himself. He has taught me to just live life and live in the moment that makes me happy. He told me to follow my heart and not my mind. I tend to over think things and I try to analyse every single detail of my life. Sometimes I talk myself out of doing something that can be really beneficial for me out of fear of being hurt or let down. I know I can not control the future or the lives of people around me. I see that I can only love me and do what's best for me at the end of the day. We have a lot of things in common and I am ready to let go of my fears and just take a chance...but this first step is harder than I ever thought it would be.